Sheils Writes

The hardest part is doing it.  The hardest part is saying I’m going to do it and not doing it.  The hardest part is watching my dream disappear.  The hardest part is getting started again. The hardest part is looking at a blank screen and having nothing come to me.  The hardest part is not wanting to stop but to keep going and hope I nail it just one time.  It just takes that one time.  At least that’s what I hear.  I hear stopping isn’t the answer.  I hear ‘write what you know’.  I hear ‘you write so well’.  I hear ‘I enjoy reading what you write’.  I hear ‘you really have a way of capturing an emotion into words’ – I hear a voice in my head, constantly, telling me don’t stop, don’t stop, don’t stop.

I guess if something is easy, then maybe it’s not meant to be, if something is effortless then what’s the point of bothering, although those both sound pretty good to me.  Writing is hard and writing takes effort, at least for me, at least for right now.  Stopping is easy but then the loss of my hope of being a good writer goes away, I can’t lose that hope.  Hope is all I have right now, at this moment in time and I can’t lose hope because then that really takes me to a dark place.

Blank screen ahead, new year ahead, fire up the engines and write my heart out because at the end of the day I want to be a writer.  It’s my dream.  I have not totally found my ‘voice’ this past year, I have not totally found my niche.

I said I would just write and see what came out of me.  So that’s what I’ll continue to do heading into 2025.  Just write.  If I found everything I was looking for in the past 8 months, I don’t think I’ve paid my dues as a writer, I don’t think I got it just yet.  I have learned that a writer works every day at their craft.  A writer works 24/7 trying to think of what to write about.  Today I am writing about writing.  Today I am writing to tell everyone who reads this to keep hoping and dreaming about what it is they are good at, they want to do, how they want to leave their mark in this world.  Today is a new day and it’s the first day of the rest of my hopeful, dream filled life.  Join me, add your dream and get started at whatever it may be that makes you want to get up every day.  I have not failed, I have not succeeded, I have started and I will keep going.